A Big Fat Hypocrite

There is a time, I was intrigued by the hero cover, wondering what if I can be the one? or impose such a position. Reading various sources trying to live by the ideologies of my predecessors. A morality taken up to impress the people whom I have been associated with, those who have my investment of time, love and bonding. Also to strangers whom I have never seen or will ever do, to whom I am nothing but a name on the internet and they hold no bars in worrying about my sentiments or life. It is normal to gain a momentum of thoughts that lead to certain convictions. Those things which make us feel good inside, that is all we ever needed, a cozy self conscience with a dose of lie.

Hold on to that thought, but aren't we manipulative? I believe for that matter I can even manipulate my own consciousness. It is not easy to make someone believe, it needs patience and very careful steps or maneuvers. Most common saying 'follow what you say, don't lose your credibility'. There is no credibility in people (make no mistake), maybe we are made up to believe in the masks or the make up which is set up appropriately. The animal inside is the most important part of our inner self, it is fatal to ignore this fact. We search meaning of a simple word in a set of complex words, approaching our need, craving, and obsessions with care is necessity. To perform well in a social set up, there needs to be a balance which can be thought, make changes wherever possible and make a final version which could survive and then leave peacefully.

Now all this may seem gibberish and what more than my personal experience or idea? Ideology works better when we come to know ideology is irrational, there is nothing ideal. Truth is overrated, everything in this world is convoluted one way or the other, in different shapes and degrees. Complete picture is not offered, there are many who seek and end up seeking. The pursuit and handling hypocrisy is vital, I am a big fat hypocrite! Yes there I said it. It is not as bad as it seems, personal favors are ought to happen, feeling at ease on those base make things simple. The policies, principles are as true as you want them to be, wake up one day you can erase them all. The next day reboot, even love, connection is strong conviction which arose due to repeated thinking.

In short, demons are common, the way we accept it and handle makes the picture. No Hero, no Villain, there is just different stories, based on truth and lies of various scales.